It's like a roller coaster.
it just goes up and down and up and down and up and down.
nothing's gonna help it.
preventing oneself from falling deeper yet there's nothing to salvage it.

trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.

hoping for a better ending, not for you but for me.
for once, i want to he selfish.
for once, i don't want to give in.
how am i going to let you know?
if i ever let you know, will the ending be the type that i want?
will you ever give me a chance?

when i was screaming and crying all alone

I am to blame for entrusting it to him. i wanted to present the movie which i had spent so much time and work on it so much. it's something so dear to me and because i entrusted the PowerPoint to someone, he made me realise that i've failed myself. he does not know what to add and what to take away. i srsly regretted. i regretted so much.

the presentation may not mean anything to you people but it's my greatest dream, for now, to present it to the level. and now, my dream had been shattered in my own hand? the disappointment that had been with me ever since the start of the PowerPoint had never retreated up till now. i regretted not checking on the PowerPoint. If only i know what was going to happen, i'll definitely take charge of the PowerPoint myself.

i can't hold back my tears. i really can't. do you how much it hurts when i put in so much effort in that particular movie and in the end, i didn't get to share it with the level. if only, there's one more chance to present my video again. somehow, i've given up in my studies.

i regretted doing so much for my CCA and my results dropped drastically. the pain in my heart, for choosing the wrong step, will be etched in my heart.

我的心在滴血。
没人能体会的那种痛。
我的眼睛在流着泪，心里却在滴这血。
每一滴血都带着我的遗憾，滴了下来。
每一滴泪带着我的苦恼，留了下来。
我好想你，却不能和你沟通。

I'll cry you a river.
P.S/ Andala, thank you for lending me your shoulder to lie and cry on. i love youuuuuuuuu ♥


after school, went to eat with KianBeng. Daowei & Yanzhi joined us while we're buying our food. Ha. :D then went for math remedial with KianBeng. Oh well, it srsly refreshes my mind of the work we've done during the first half of the year.

O: Scary, exams are coming. Damn, i feel so stress up by the freakish exams. Gaaaaah ):

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